Yoga & Chakras

Yoga - Check
Arm & Core - Check
Belly Dancing - Check

While doing yoga this morning, I kept looking back at my Chakra Healing book, but I didn't want to break my routine to grab it.  Looking through it, I already do many of the poses that are good for your chakras (and overall health), but I'd like to do more.  Which unfortunately means either getting a mat or --gasp-- putting on shoes.  I hate wearing shoes for yoga.  But I wear shoes when working out outside... I'd like to do yoga outside, too, and due to a grass allergy, I'd have to wear shoes. 

Ah, shoes...

Although my ganglion cyst is apparently gone, so no shoe discomforts. 

I have gotten in the habit of doing yoga before healing sessions, for my chakras.  To open, balance, and "stretch" them.  Warm up, yoga, exercise.  I've found that the healing session are easier since I began this practice. 

Overall, it's been easier to open up my chakras, to be honest, yoga before or not.

Some of the poses are going to be fairly challenging, but then so was everything else that I do now.  You get use to it--gotta break your body in, like a new pair of shoes....except ain't nothing new about my 35-year-old obese, stiff body. 

Not as stiff as I used to be!

Progress over time. 

Practice makes better!

Some of the poses that I do (according to this book):

• Bound Angle Pose (didn't know this was yoga)
• Bridge Pose
• Cat Pose
• Child's Pose
• Cow Pose
• Open Angle Pose
• Pigeon Pose
• Reclining Bound Pose
• Seated Spinal Twist
• Standing Forward Bend
• Tree Pose

The poses that I want to try/work up to:

• Camel Pose
• Chair Pose
• Cow Face Pose
• Downward Facing Dog
• Extended Side Angle
• Half Boat Pose
• Happy Baby Pose
• Head-to-Knee Pose
• Corpse Pose
• Triangle Pose
• Warrior 1 & 2
• Sun Salutation

Most of the poses in the second part, I have done, as I've done yoga off and on throughout the years and for P90X, but those were fast paced for weightloss.  My focus for yoga now is more about stretching, flexibility, and healing work.  

Also my brand of yoga is clearly for overweight/obese people.  Got that stomach in the way, so you have to adapt.  Luckily there's loads of videos and programs for plus-sized yoga.  

I think next session, I'm going to keep the book close at hand.

Pink Moon Energy

I've decided to use the energy of the Pink Moon to get back on track with my diet and exercise.  Things have gotten so lax and lazy and inconsistent.  Nah, not good.  Healthwise, not good.  Plus I'm renewing my handfasting vows October 2020, I gots to be able to fit into a dress and feel good in it. 

So while I've restarted jalking, I need to get back on being strict again.  None of this lazy BS.  Feeling tired?  Work out.  Get energy with movement, because exercise is weird like that. 

This week, I'm releasing that laziness and replacing it with my strict routine!

Also as high cholesterol runs in my family, I need to cut down on the grease--which I don't really indulge in because my stomach can't handle it--and fried foods.  We've gotten so bad with fast food this year. 

So starting today, back to it!

Yoga - Check!
Leg & Core - Check!

Physical and Sexual Health (AND Relationships)

After an attunement with Shiva, all March I was sick.  I think I worked out like 1-2 times a week.  These last 2-3 weeks, I barely did anything between PMS, too much face-to-face interactions, and actually being on a my period.  I was 4 days late before I actually started.

I seriously doubted if I was pregnant, because my husband performance has been less than thrilling.  He'd bring me to the edge of climax, then he'd cum and be done.  So yeah, I wasn't all that eager to have sex with him.  It did prompt him to schedule to get snipped, which he has his consultation for that today.

Although the other day he said something hurtful about me "not putting out" anymore.  I could've hurt him worse, but I didn't.  I could've said, "Hey maybe our next girlfriend won't know what an orgasm feels like, so when yall fuck and you get yours, she won't know the difference!"  But I didn't.

I showed restraint.

Oh, and she will know one, because I'll give her plenty.  Blow her mind to what female pleasure is like.

Prick.

Oh, and my husband finally got me a Bad Dragon tentacle dildo--something that I've been wanting and wanting since I learned about Bad Dragon sex toys.  I'm not happy with it.  It's too little and too soft.  My husband has this thing about me getting toys that are bigger than he is.  It's BS, especially since I've delivered three kids vaginally.  It's ain't tight down there anymore.  It's like throwing a hotdog down a hallway.  He really needs to get over his maleness, and realize that HE hasn't change.  I have!  My vagina isn't tight anymore.  I need more girth!  I need bigger and harder toys.  So I'm very disappointed in the toy he bought me, which really sucks because I've wanted it for so long.  I wanted to dedicate it to Poseidon, but now I don't even want to use it because of stupid maleness and dick ego.  It's just not a suitable gift for Poseidon anymore.  Not as a sex toy anyway.  It's still a beautiful piece, just not a suitable toy.  But I know for next time I order from Bad Dragon, so I can get what I want, and he can get the fuck over it.

He seriously needs to get over it and accept that it isn't him, it's me.  Three vaginal births, hello!  Your dick hasn't changed.  Nothing's wrong with you!  Technically, nothing's wrong with me either, natural change with vaginal childbirth.  I plan on getting one big series of cosmetic surgery and it's not going to be wasted on tightening up my vagina, it's going to be used for excess skin removal.

Well, one problem will be solved this month--no worry me of getting pregnant, which means I can have an orgasm during sex again.  Oh, and I should mention, we pull out--in case that wasn't obvious, because I'm allergic to latex and refuse to take birth control pills after the last batch made me suicidal.

Also, I'm getting a bigger dildo.

So back to exercise, I have been taking advantage of these warm days and I've been jalking more and more.  Today, I did yoga, leg day, and belly dancing.  I want to go jalking today, but my husband still haven't bought new tires, so....I did more exercises than usual.  I turned up the heat for more sweating and got that heart rate up!

Le sigh.  Time to go eat something healthy.

__________________________

Update (April 13, 2019): Hubby's proven to be a good listener and isn't petty about me wanting/needing something bigger than him.  We talked and I made him understand that it's not him.  There's nothing emasculating going on.  He let me pick out another Bad Dragon toy...and a bag of teenie weenies.  So Poseidon has a nice tentacle sculpture and Dionysus and the Satyrs will get a bag of mini dicks, and I'll have the Large and Firm Apollo for my sexual health needs.